Good morning from Pocatello, Idaho!

I sit here in a rental Airbnb house on a cold, yet beautiful morning more than 700 miles from my home, while my oldest son who has fought Lyme disease for over 15 years is getting a month long treatment at the West Clinic. Just him and I holed up in this little house learning not only how to navigate an unfamiliar town in snowy conditions, but our own relationship as well.

This journey we’ve embarked on has been led by God, without a doubt — every step of the way He has been a lamp to our feet and a light to our path — leading us through every uncertainty and fears.

Zach’s treatment is for a full month and today he finished day seven of his second week here. It’s hard to believe we’ve been gone from home for twelve days now with two and half weeks left. I’m beginning to miss home and all it’s familiarity, but the main reason is  perhaps because I’d rather not be face to face with things which have been left unsaid between my son and I for far too many years. Before this trip he had some pretty strong, hurtful things to say to me and each day I wonder when those things might surface again or if they will. The worry of it has gotten the better of me over the last few days, making for restless nights and sudden tears. But for now, my prayer is for the Lord to bring about the perfect time if it’s meant to be for us to uncover and resolve those issues.

If there is one thing I’ve learned over the past decade, it’s how the Lord can take all that looks dark and bleak in our lives and turn it into something beautiful. And His timing is always perfect! So while I wait in anticipation of where my son and I will be at the end of this month — I will lean on my favorite verse which has seen me through some rather dark days and nights:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.”

~Proverbs 3:5-6

Learning to submit to His ways and not trying to be in control of it all, is never easy, but always has the best outcome.

Time is rather scarce right now, my days are pretty full, but I will be making more of an effort to squeeze out some time to write. Thank you to all who have stuck with me!

In love, hope and faith,